No, it isn't a Christmas song, sorry. I was informed only today about one of the members of the CypherPunks list's death and it's still hurting a lot. He was an amazing guy, so sweet and intelligent, so young and full of dreams, and I've lost the chance of hugging him at least once and say hello... and goodbye too... I do still not know if there is a God or not, but I really wanted to believe that my friend is well now, with no pain or sadness, feeling cozy, protected and loved. I don't know about other lives, possible karmas, and reincarnations, Heaven, Purgatory, and Hell, but in any case, always there will be the atoms and the Chemistry to comfort me without judgements or any kind of social hypocrisy... My sadness is not a 'lack of faith' as some religious people say, but simply what I am feeling now. I am missing a dear friend, who will never contact me again... :'( Ceci =========== "Looking For An Answer - Linkin Park" https://youtu.be/labrkIEGxyA [Verse 1] There's an emptiness tonight A hole that wasn't there before And I keep reaching for the light But I can't find it anymore There's an emptiness tonight A heavy hand that pulls me down They say it's gonna be alright But can't begin to tell me how [Pre-Chorus] And I ask myself out loud [Chorus] Have I been lost all along? Was there something I could say or something I should not have done? Was I lost all along? Was I looking for an answer when there never really was one? Was I looking for an answer when there never really was one? [Verse 2] Is there sunshine where you are? The way there was when you were here 'Cause I'm just sitting in the dark In disbelief that this is real In disbelief that this is real [Chorus] Have I been lost all along? Was there something I could say or something I should not have done? Was I lost all along? Was I looking for an answer when there never really was one? Was I looking for an answer when there never really was one? [Pre-Chorus] And I ask myself out loud [Chorus] Have I been lost all along? Was there something I could say or something I should not have done? Was I lost all along? Was I looking for an answer when there never really was one? ------- "Don't let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity. It's your place in the world; it's your life. Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live." - Mae Jemison