i’m scared of the nightmares after engaging mind control recovery<div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">y’know, i’m not aware of having ever been raped by a guy in a devil suit, but the described trauma does seem similar to the nightmares and other extreme inhibitions. it’s been so long.</div><div dir="auto">similarly, being forced to believe you are murdering people (it’s one of the examples in the thing i’m engaging), i used to have this so viscerally, now i barely remember it much :S</div><div dir="auto">but the habits persist, despite the stores fading, blurring.</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(certainly still have denial programming around government mind control, i read about this and it reads like conspiracy theories, i’m all “this can’t be serious, how can anybody believe something saying this” despite having seen the documents)(?)</div><div dir="auto">(it’s certainly h-+</div><div dir="auto">2210</div>