quote below, a typo is fixed, s/programmer/programmed/
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it is easier to remember what to do
when one begins needing to dissociate to stay with the work.
dissociation involves splitting one's concepts in two, some for each
part, so that each intense emotion has concepts that satisfy it. when
one repeatedly dissociates it then really severely shrinks one's
working memory.
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my flat_tree and log seem a mess to me atm, and likely made by a
psychologically programmed trigger, which i dissociate from to
separate the subtle and severe terror from the programming, if i want
to stay. it then becomes very confusing that the mess is made of
multiple factoring changes to the content, to my smaller dissociated
conciousness, and the confusion around this tends to quickly trigger
the mess actions again. with extended practice dissociating, i can
toughen against that to a degree, and keep staying, but my memory
shrinks very small.