0901

my google voice says before the wonkiness paypal sent me a login code from the wrong-looking shortcode, then after the wonkiness sent me one from the right-looking shortcode. i typed this in and it said there was a problem and to try again (i was a few minutes delayed, could have timed out). i had it resend the code and it sent one from the wrong-looking shortcode. this one worked to log in.

0905

1010

things are funny and it’s time to get up.

my credit card is maxed; i rebooted the device a few times

haven’t yet logged in to bank account, stuff wasn’t responding but chess game worked

1011

bank website still trying to load

1012

some of the influenced parts poke at me having a “possibly illegal source of funds” they’re referring to my use of cryptocurrency, which some crowds associate with illegal activity, but is also just a store of value.

i’m trying to figure out how much money i make, and spend only within this amount, and increase the amount. re cryptocurrency this relates to predicting market behavior. i started that around 2013 or whatever year prior to mtgox getting broken into and stolen from, which participated in setting me back. still working toward doing this, moreso some this past year. i had a few thousand dollars in bitcoin at the time, before mining exploded.

1015

lots of information or ideas, maybe not all quite right (from inferring from words without their backing or meaning or intent or whatnot held) hard to tell, not sure what they are

1016

triangle triangle

so this month it looks like i may be badly overdrawn

i’ll —

1016

the banking website is still trying to load, although multiplayer chess worked fine. i’ll refresh it. loaded right up!

1017

i’m excited that i have $800 in my account (i have more in savings but can very quickly drain them so value ignoring it, ref goal above)

1020

i want to “block” some of the money so i don’t spend it

maybe i could decide how much i want to spend, pay off the credit card that much, and then use the credit card for purchases

still thinking about a little. the cc interest is pretty high, it has maybe a 1.4k limit which is surpassed somehow, maybe interest. be important to pay that off, don’t seem to quite be prepared to atm

1022

i had it payi—

1022

somewhat confused, requests exist to write about money less, we were thinking of using time to help financial situation unsure

let’s increase the cc autopayment to at least half what it was, and pay off 120 and use the cc as spending money for the next week

  ok not sure if that leaves money for gas but

  realizing that if balance drops from paying card, we can then use card because is no longer maxed. possibly helpful.

we need to eat at soup kitchens and shop at food pantries more. last attempt backfired. maybe be more willing to fast. current situation with mc and food impacting money and direction could maybe use a personal label, unsure.

1026

1026

happy to have approach

1027

note: it kind of took over our body and had us eat purchased food, but more gently, but this ended up getting paired with [complex] inhibition around soup kitchens

[big issue]

1028

1029

note: after the reboots, paypal was logged out, and i had to log in twice just now to get in. after logging in once, it returned me to the login screen, and i then logged in a second time to reach the interface.

[this looks in line with how password phishing interfaces behave, karl]

1030

1034

some consider that sharing the text within brackets could relate to it not having been acted on: e.g. the dangerous-insecurity-inducing parts might worry. unsure.

1036

paypal incentivizes me to use their mastercard by giving me cashback rewards. these are less than the interest i paid this month, i imagine that’s normal/expected.

uhhhhh

the whoops trying to whoops

1037

i tried to withdraw them and [we want acknowledgement that because we control our behavior poorly -  wait oh! we want to understand that the credit card can be beneficial or harmful depending on our management of our behavior. we’d like to know how to not have interest! or at least — blargh it’s all tangled. i think we shouldn’t have a credit card because:

1. it charges interest if we don’t have all the money that month

oh wait ohhh hmm okk

credit cards make it seem to you like you have more money than you do, and  - 

blargh!

]

i tried to withdraw the rewards

[because of mc we shouldn’t use credit cards. uhhh because we accumulate more debt than we make money, in the debt accumulating space.

although we also -  unsure 7nsure

]

[the reason for cards in 2013 was cryptocurrency had a higher return than -]

1040

i was writing that my bank account wasn’t listed as a way to withdraw, i went to add it, and it said it was already added, after i had put my credentials in.

1045 w