but my control habits don't trust my shares with this list atm and i'm kinda freaking out around other things.

I recently sent a good chunk of my actual story in an email.  Including facebook's interface training me to respond to my newsfeed with precise behaviors and my unique cancer diagnosis changing mid-treatment.  I'm sure profit is itching to have me know it exactly and share it a lot.  We'll get there.

So, running a business.  Money, appearance, messaging, employees, working hard.  Working hard for what is good for the business.