> You sound cool. Your picture doesn't show a disgraceful person
Oh, sorry, my fault! Never remember to use filters or photo programs to make me look me desperately miserable. This is the reason I like this pic. It's just me and a Totoro hat.
> (But some problems are sooo fucking boring... Me too, I know. Sorry, bad mood. Need more sugar.)
Now, now, what's your problem with yourself?
Devastating physical pain and considerable emotional pain too. It hurts, it is frustrating when, after years trying to discover what is happening with your body, you finally receive an answer, and do need to fight against the State and the private health plan you contracted a decade ago and is f* expensive. Just for economic reference, I could use this money for visiting you once a month before all the COVID-19 stuff.
At least, I do love my lawyer. When I look to the mirror, she still smiles to me, even working for free. I am an egocentric bastard and I still remember how life is sweet when you don't feel any pain. First, I will get the freedom back for me. After it, without pain, I will try to get the same sweet sensation for other people. Nobody deserves to feel pain and/or fear, darling.
In the moment, I am not a so good writer like I used to be and it's pretty scary for me. In the last three months, my doctor and I tried several medicines for avoiding the extreme levels of pain, but the chemicals make my writing so... hmm... meh! :-/
And there are stupid mistakes, specially in French, because I learn a language using its sounds first, not its writing... Or, at least, try to do it. Sorry, my fault, I know I am a disaster with all languages, in special German Sauerkraut recipes! My last try exploded in the kitchen a few days ago and my nose is still screaming, full of horror... :-/
(Do you remember my past Sauerkraut disasters, Mirimir? Tor-Talk list before being kickbanned, for example, hahahaha!!)
So, I prefer the pain and a, more or less, decent writing in Brazilian Portuguese, my native language, even being slower. My English always stinks, with or without pain, so no considerable problem.
I just need time and patience for learning a bit more about Medicine.
Disinfected tender kisses and hugs. Take care, dear all! <3
Ceci
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