person and shadow<div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">i told this therapist that i lie (without meaning/wanting to). they asked me to let them know when i did. afterward, i was thinking the [times i told them inwas lying and wasn’t were backward, o was lying about lying</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">2006</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">[[i don’t really know how to talk with shadow, it’s really behavioral/influenced. maybe it’s holding the part of my mind around thinking about that …</div><div dir="auto">like often it just changes me </div><div dir="auto">but we might have come a long way</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">2008</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">there’s also a lot of missing connection</div><div dir="auto">i used to always listen for importance, but now that’s miswired, and that’s very nonintuitive, to have listening for things be numb [etc]</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">but ! again ! :)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">it’s hard for me to remember that a decade has passed</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">2010</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">time for bed!</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">uhhh</div><div dir="auto">i am trying to download three documents to post as spams but not quite getting ghem here, and thst’s confusing for me. maybe i can “wormhole” them or something</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">looks like my phone died where i downloaded already</div><div dir="auto">2012</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">2025</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">i think it would make sense to run a hotspot on the phone and ssh onto the phone to get the files. b</div><div dir="auto"><br></div>